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>I’m not sad with the rejection by the Feng Chia University!
I’m just MAD!

I’m just try to inform all the friends who may concern with me, it’s doesn’t mean I need sympathy for that. Please don’t misunderstand bout me, I’ve no any energy to explain all of that, friends. I’m really TIRED with my study dream. I’m just want to study and that’s just a interest for me, why it’s always seem so difficult for me. I’m really felt want to give up but as my personality, I can’t!

I’m try to drunk myself yesterday but ended in failure finally. I’m just random words in front my friend–chew hua. She really a good friend and a good listener. Many friends shocked with my move yesterday, but finally they just busy with their stuff and just chew hua crazy with me whole yesterday night. But what the sad thing was when I was drinking more that’s more sober. I’m trying to force myself don’t think that such idiot stupid matter happen to me. I’m trying to make myself happy back but I can’t. I don’t want anyone sympathy for my bumpy road of learning.

I CAN’T RELEASE MY STRESS AND MY PROBLEMS OF THIS TIME. I HATE IT!

I need a window to release all of that stress, a big huge window. I need a time to take over my madness, sadness and all my stress I have to face. I need a person who can have a deep talk to me. I need a person tell me what can I do to reduce my guilt. I don’t know where is my guilt come from, just always will have guilt for my studies. I need a new environment to change this all. I need a trip or a vacation or a new job.

I’m tired deceit by someone and have a mask when I’m working. I’m just want to keep silent to keep me stay away from those rumours. I’m just need somethings to keep myself more happier. I’m just lazy to face all of that in this moment.

It’s time to change all of that. I’ll back. I want I’m strong and sure as my name.

隨性地想,隨性地走

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Author: wei

從新村到島國,感覺就是如此格格不入。 到了島國以後,漸漸地深信文字能救贖,所以也如與水相剋般宿命,斷斷續續地寫。

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